The stress is real. Or, perhaps, I’m just stressing over nothing. Either way, two breakdowns in a week. Hormones – maybe.
Time to reflect:
Okay. I am finding the content pretty easy and nothing is actually difficult at all yet.
With regard to my two modules for this semester, the deadlines are both in December, a week apart. So, all in all, not too bad. I’ve begun research for one and I am waiting on the coursework-related lecture to begin the other.
So why am I stressing?
I think I’m stressed out because of the time constraints I have to do my independent research. I haven’t been able to set up my study yet (online), nor has my peer, who I am working alongside, where the control for this is out of my hands.
Generally speaking, I only usually stress about things if I know I’m not in control of them. Life, for example. Jokes aside, I prefer to have complete autonomous responsibility than to have to wait on others. Although, I completely understand that at this level, this is how it will work and there’s nothing I can do.
On a more positive note.
Today, I managed to screw my head around a lot of research! Go me!
Now I am taking the rest of the day off, because I deserve it. I managed to finally do two modules worth of work. Most importantly, it wasn’t the quantity of work produced (not much when you’re reading anyway), but the understanding that came from it which has blessed me with some reassurance.
Now, I am going to meditate and read. Until next time.
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